I can most appreciate your reservations, Calvinism imposed problems exclusive to itself and the symptoms were theological fatalism as well "head entrapment." Too much detached intellectualism (mindful), and not enough application by which most of what was emphasized in Calvinism offered little. Though, and I emphasize though, Calvinism emphasized the Grace of G-d worthy off all Glory. Imagine sitting back as a fan and as a member of the fan club being reduced on the sidelines - I found myself frozen yet chosen. Judaism ignited a flame which melted the iced over mindfulness.
Yes, post Judaism surprisingly makes allusions constantly to the Messiah Yeshua in reservation. Regardless, I have discovered most Judaic members surprisingly acknowledge Jesus as the most important figure in the last millenniums. I suppose to most, this will not do because in contrast Muslims might indicate the same by saying Jesus was the Last Prophet. Though recognizable, not paramount according to the standards of Christians. For me personally, Moses was foundational, not only the instrument of Grace, the giver of Law by the Giver of Law, but obviously because all of the Prophets pointed back to the Law. While Jesus is the answer for the unhinged door in reconciliation Jesus followed his tradition and the Law of Moses and demonstrated the faith of Abraham.
Yeshua = the L-rd will save
YeOshua = the L-rd saved
Regardless of my now delineation from Christianity to Judaism I'd be as John said a liar if I denied Jesus was not my savior as a lost sheep of Israel. Messianic Jew? I was not raised Jewish therefore the traditions of Jews seemingly suit me not well, however, from a religious perspective quite the tailored made three piece equivalent. Oral tradition rather than westernized institutions of academia for example, I have not attended universities; therefore, oral tradition seemingly better describes the knowledge received today.
Shalom