Really have faith, go to the library and check out. The books.
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Yes, unfortunately you'll probably find a book or two by Bart Ehrman in your public library.
My local library has a single shelf of "religious" books... very few of them are worth reading IMO.
But I counted four shelves of gender-related books. :-(
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church library would be a better starting place to look (speaking as a church librarian).
Although the curated selection on the shelves in our church library do not deal with textual criticism (which is the topic you've been discussing).
I used to live near a small Christian University (Cairns University, Langhorne, PA). Each year a few of the students served in the church I attended.
In their fourth year they would delve deeply into some troubling topics, such as textual criticism. It would shake the faith of some.
Sometimes it's good to shake things up... sometimes it's not. The students had the support of professors, staff and others to counsel them through it. But introducing these issues to someone not completely grounded in the faith flirts with danger. Protect your faith!
Scripture addresses protecting your faith through vigilance, discernment, and active resistance to spiritual threats.
Knowing beforehand that deception exists, you should take care not to be swept away by the error of lawless people and lose your stability (2 Peter 3:17-18).
Guard and Maintain Your Faith
Follow the pattern of sound teaching and
guard the treasure that dwells within you (2 Timothy 1:13-14; 6:20-21).
Hold fast to your confession of hope without wavering, depend on the faithfulness of God (Hebrews 10:23).
Guard your heart with vigilance; keep your eyes on the prize (Proverbs 4:23-27).
Guard Against Deception and False Teaching
Discernment is an essential protection. Believers should “test everything; hold fast what is good,” (1 Thessalonians 5:21-22). Paul warns against allowing philosophy and empty deception to take you captive (Colossians 2:6-8). Believers are called to “contend for the faith that was once for all delivered to the saints,” (Jude 3) which requires both awareness and action.
Spiritual Strength, Preparedness and Resistance
The armor of God enables you to stand against the devil’s schemes, recognize that we struggle against spiritual forces of evil (Ephesians 6:10-18). Be sober-minded and watchful, our adversary is seeking someone to devour, resist! stay firm in your faith (1 Peter 5:8-9).
Rob