I don't quite grasp this notion that I've dropped out of the race, or thrown away my deepest held convictions. Christianity isn't all bad. In fact much of it is good. In it's purist altruistic and anti materialist sense it may be the best thing going for humanity.
And you look to the words of “wise” men for your answers instead God’s Word quoting the science of evolutionary psychology which you study in your wisdom instead of believing God’s Word that has explained and warned you to beware of this.
(Ecc 9:10) Whatsoever thy hand findeth to do, do it with thy might; for there is no work, nor device,
nor knowledge, nor wisdom, in the grave, whither thou goest.
(Ecc 9:11) I returned, and saw under the sun,
that the race is not to the swift , nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favor to men of skill; but time and chance happeneth to them all.
(Ecc 9:12) For man also knoweth not his time: as the fishes that are taken in an evil net, and as the birds that are caught in the snare;
so are the sons of men snared in an evil time , when it falleth suddenly upon them.
(Eph 4:14) That we henceforth be no more children, tossed to and fro, and carried about with every wind of doctrine,
by the sleight of men, and cunning craftiness, whereby they lie in wait to deceive;
(Eph 4:15) But speaking the truth in love, may grow up into him in all things, which is the head, even Christ:
(Eph 4:16) From whom the whole body fitly joined together and compacted by that which every joint supplieth, according to the effectual working in the measure of every part, maketh increase of the body unto the edifying of itself in love.
(Eph 4:17)
This I say therefore, and testify in the Lord, that ye henceforth walk not as other Gentiles walk, in the vanity of their mind,
(Eph 4:18)
Having the understanding darkened, being alienated from the life of God through the ignorance that is in them, because of the blindness of their heart:
(Rom 8:14) For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God.
(Rom 8:15) For ye have
not received the spirit of
bondage again to fear;
but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.
(Rom 8:16)
The Spirit itself beareth witness with our spirit , that we are the children of God:
(Rom 8:17) And if children, then heirs; heirs of God, and joint-heirs with Christ; if so be that we suffer with him, that we may be also glorified together.
Your deepest held convictions are worth what it the grave? So you’ve done well in your own eyes and own convictions, where will you go now? Maybe you don’t believe you have a soul so what does it matter? If you fear and resent the bondage of being His son, which has been explained (Romans 8:15) why should it matter where your inheritance lies? This terrible guilt that has been so well explained in your new science from men should have the satisfactory answers for you. It’s over right? Easier that way. Or have you built your own heaven to go to after the race? Again what does it matter? If you don’t believe in God and look to Him for the answers why should you believe in heaven anyway? Maybe these articles by the sleight of men you believe (that the Word warns, “whereby they lie in wait to deceive”) can more than His Word give you the answers.
Why worry if you have your mind made up? (Romans 8:16) Could these deepest held convictions be a problem?