But I think we have to be careful about that. There may be a legitimate reason for doubt. I know three deacons who became convinced that they had never been truly saved. To try to give them assurance would have been exactly the wrong thing to do.
I think we have a great message of God's love for sinners. But we cannot preach that to the exclusion of God's hatred of sin.
Tom, is that story about the three deacons really true? I would like to meet them someday. LOL.
I do not claim to understand the complex nature of God's sovereignty vs man's free will, as I have no theological training, other than reading Scripture. I can only speak for my experience. I admire Skandeleon, and others who tackle this issue daily.
All I know is that during that revival in Novenbe 1994, at which Tom Butler was present, I felt like I had been hit with a ton of bricks. I had attended the first two services, and went home feeling very agitated. One night the evangelist played Amazing Grace on a saw, and I whispered t my wife, "I am not going back to one more night of this Hee Haw circus." She just looked at me and whispered back, you better listen to the Lord. Anyway, the next night, a Thursday, the speaker talked about faith in Jesus Christ, a changed life, a gift with no works, and the death, burial and Ressurection of Jesus Christ as the basis of our hope. That is the point I felt the bricks hit. The more he talked, the worse I felt. Down deep inside, I knew instantly that I was no more saved than Adolph Hitler. Going to a six week communicants class, and going before a church to answer questions about the Lord that had been practiced at the age of thirteen was not the basis of salvation. My life had not changed. I went to church because I had been taught to go to church by Mom and Dad, and now went because my wife went, plus it was a good example for my kids. No, I did not go around cheating on my wife and come home drunk every night, but I knew at that moment my heart was not a heart that loved the Lord with all my heart, soul, and mind. He was not the center of my life. Until that moment, I realized I did not ever really have the desire to understand the Gospel, the real meaning of he death, burial and Ressurection, or the concept of the depth of God's love for me, that his Son would die for my sins, and that it was a free gift. The experience at the Presbyterian church was in essence what one would do in a history class for a test, memorize a set of answers to a set of known questions.
Without getting into a debate about the worthiness of an altar call, when the service was over, I walked up front, knowing that I was lost. The Lord saved me. Before that night, I the question never crossed my mind of not being saved. I had joined a church, and that was quite enough. That all changed that night.
My attendance at church was better than 90% of the other members. I gave more of my salary than most, and participated in more ministries. That all makes no difference. It was without Jesus Christ as my Lord. I cannot describe all the things that were going through my mind. How much tme had I wasted playing church? Why did the Lord touch me that night, bring me to that revival? It hit me that the pain that Christ suffered on the cross for all the sins I had committed was real pain, physical and spiritual pain. The Creator of the universe had died for me and touched me to bring me into His family. Another thing I felt at the moment was being ashamed for the angry thoughts I had at the man bringing the message.
As I said above, I do not know which side my description of this salvation experience puts me on, but I am eternally thankful to the Lord. My local church had and has lots of kind and mature spiritual leaders. Tom Butler and other spiritual leaders of the church were very instrumental in guiding me on the start of this wonderful journey. Today, I am in all the ministries that I did before salvation, but today, I actually look forward to going and serving. I still fall short of God's glory, and still say things I should not (imagine that), but the Lord is my Savior, is guiding me, and has me on the road to eternity with him.
I would appreciate someone who took the time to read this telling me which side of this issue you would classify me.