God is aware of your actions and either allowing or not allowing you to act according to your desires. He does this according to his overriding will.
OK...BUT allowing me and directing me are two distinctly different things.
You said earlier that God directed me to have a ham and cheese for lunch today and he did so from eternity past. Now you are seemingly saying something different.
Did I have free will to decide what to have for lunch and God allowed it?
OR
Did God cause me to have a ham and cheese sandwich for lunch?
Which is it?