" For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ: for it is the power of God unto salvation to every one that believeth; to the Jew first, and also to the Greek. " ( Romans 1:16 ).
My friend, I'm not ashamed of the Gospel that Paul preached, nor am I ashamed of the very same Gospel that Peter, James and John preached...
The same Gospel that was given to them by their Saviour, Jesus Christ.
But if I were you, I would go back to the Scriptures and be sure of every word, sir...
For it is in those words that you will find the answers to the things it seems you rail against.
It is in those words where I find those same answers.
May God bless you.
You will be ashamed when you find that Christ offered Himself to the whole world and for all time as a sacrifice for their sins.
1 John 2:2
"And he is the propitiation for our sins: and not for ours only, but also for the sins of the whole world."
God help you, Dave G.